You can feel it beating so hard it hurts and you feel like there are fingers crawling down your throat. It doesn’t have to be this punishing. When you sleep, you dream and all of your worries seem to go away. When your eyes are closed, you go into another world and for a moment, you can relax, when it feels like the weight of everything is being placed on your chest. It’s hard to rest, hard to sleep; hard to stay awake … it’s even hard to breathe.