Life As A Writer

Michael Daaboul. 26 y/o from Australia/Melbourne. Digital Designer & Creative Writer.

Today I wonder why I couldn’t get myself together to save you and I wonder why I wasn’t a better person. I fell back in darkness where I thought I was with you, being content in complacency and remembering all our conversations while finger mapping our body’s grooves. It hurts you know, when I thought it was you, that I would be the one that will be next to you.
Michael Daaboul
I’m not myself, okay, I’m under so much stress, I feel like shit and I’m having panic attacks as if it was a cup of coffee. I can’t take this anymore, I feel like I don’t know myself, as if I’m in a mental stranglehold, like I’m not me anymore.
Michael Daaboul
Why couldn’t I find a way to make things better before the storm came and swept my heart away? Why was I blind to the pain, numb to the emotions? Maybe my body couldn’t take the stress. Following no path, and all of this making no sense, my mind wanted to leave and my heart didn’t want to agree.
Michael Daaboul
I was happy looking back at our life, all our conversations at night and looking at the glow in your eyes. In bed with our bodies intertwined, I thought we had it all, like a beautiful song, you won’t change the station, no, it was so addictive. Somewhere along this road, I fell and I wasn’t there for you anymore.
Michael Daaboul
I should give up and walk away. What does it matter anyway? What happens if I don’t love you anymore and leave you? What can you do about it? Nothing! You grieve and you hurt. You cry and you don’t eat. You feel betrayed and destroyed, but you move on. You’re sad and nostalgic the whole time, you don’t really move on, you just slowly drift away. Then I realise, I do love you and I see you with someone else and then I grieve. It’s one violent cycle after another.
Michael Daaboul
I hope you don’t forget the beauty of space, like I haven’t forgotten you. That’s why I always had an invested interest in space, because when you left, I looked up towards the stars. I felt wherever I was, all I had to do was look up and I wouldn’t feel alone.
Michael Daaboul
I pray for your fate that it would be kind to you, so that one day you will wake up and not find out that there’s nothing you can do anymore. That you realise before it might be too late, I hope you wake up in time, wake up to your life now so you can live your dreams, not in a state of panic, but in resolve.
Michael Daaboul
I want to say sorry, I really do, but I’m so angry, I have too much pride to say it. If you could look into my eyes and see what I’m trying to say, but I know it will not end well. My inability to say what I feel will get in the way of our relationship.
Michael Daaboul
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